Speaking off the cuff
Thank you all for the tremendous response to this blog and
the encouragement. I am amazed by everything.
This weekend is my daughter’s 7th birthday and I
will be taking some time out to concentrate solely on her. I pray that I continue
to find the strength I need to be able to continue to be both mother and father
to this angel. I love her.
That said I would like to reiterate as I have done before
that this is an exercise I have undertaken in a bid to heal some of the wounds
life has inflicted on me. The chances that it will offend and seem like a long
drawn out gloat-session and touch on very sensitive issues is high. I make no
apologies for that.
I am being very careful to make sure I tell my story with
as much care as possible to the people in it and those that know about it. My only
request is that those that know me personally , are concerned or even involved
maintain anonymity as well as not breach the trust I have in them by revealing
details about their intimate knowledge of certain aspects of my life. In as
much as I am telling a story, I am not the only actor. Those that I have not
told in person that are following this…the knowledge we have of one another
should be your guide. I can only account for how I feel and if it is any
consolation I do not govern anyone’s responses or opinions.
As a free thinking individual I believe we are made
different and not agreeing with someone is not a reason to judge or hate them.
Being that the world is such a small place with all this
technology around us I appreciate that as much as you sit there reading this
now and loving it, another person is looking for a bucket to puke into. Allow.
While we are on that subject:
Life has ways of
making you appreciate the world around you.
Love has ways of making you notice the sunrise AND sunset
and drive you to seek them out. It makes you notice the patterns clouds form as
they drift in the sky.
Love makes rumbling thunder and flashing lightning seem
like the currents that fuel your soul, your soil.
It drives you to
seek out the small things around you that make the world and forces of nature
so profound, so beautiful.
Love has the power to connect you to the source of life in
such a way that the buzz of a mosquito and creak of the noisiest cricket become
beautiful sounds that are in fact the soundtrack of your journey.
Let love be the underlying, guiding, defining factor in all
the decisions we make and all the things that we do
Live and let live,
Allow
(follow me on twitter @mazituwe )
I'm hooked onto your blog mami, you are good with words...can almost see the scenes and all...writing is therapeutic, keep doing soo :) And happy birthday to your lil angel :)
ReplyDeleteMuch appreciated! She says thank you, she says she doesn't want to type on my things because her spelling isn't good yet lol. Like her mother she is a lover of love in any form and from any direction,allow!
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